On April 1st 2000 I got on a coach heading for Victoria Coach Station, London where Darren met
me and we got on a coach going to Canterbury, Kent. We grew closer and started a relastionship and in August found out we
were expecting our first child.
Cerys was born May 5th 2001 15 days after her due date. When Cerys was
2 weeks old we got offered a 2 bedroom flat. Darren decorated it while I stayed with my parents. We moved in on June 28th
2001.
Then on May 3rd 2002 we found out we were expecting our second child.
Harvey arrived on his due date January 7th 2003. When Harvey was 6 months old Darren woke up one monday morning with his back
in pain. He was signed off work and still is over a year later. We have no idea exactly what is wrong as the hospital
are extremely slow making appointments.
When Harvey turned 7 months old we decided to try for our third baby.
I didn't fall pregnant in August or September but late October after being asked if my period had arrived yet by a friend
online I took a pregnancy test which was a faint positive. Over the next week I took a few more tests but they didn't seem
to get darker well not until November 7th. I was pleased I finally had a dark test line but my happiness was short lived.
On November 10th at 3pm after waking up from a nap I went to the toilet and noticed a smear of blood in my underwear. I knew
some blood loss was normal during early pregnancy and just kept an eye on it. After half an hour I lost some more blood and
decided to give NHS Direct a call. I was told not to worry and they'd get a nurse to call me back as I wasn't loosing
too much blood and I had no pain.
It was 3 hours later that they called me back but during that time
I had gushed blood on the toilet 3 times and was in agony. They said I could be miscarrying and that I should call the out
of hours doctors in my area.
I called them and was told I was probably having a miscarriage and to go to A&E if I had
any major blood loss and to see my doctor the next day. I saw my doctor and she made an appointment for an ultrasound on November
13th.
Well the 13th came and we made our way to the hospital worried about
what we were going to see on that ultrasound screen. We were really hoping that we'd see a sac with a little heart beat flickering
but nothing showed on the screen and I had to have a blood test to rule out an ectopic pregnancy and confirm if I had miscarried
or was still pregnant. We had to wait until the next day for the consultant to call with the results. We got the call and
my HCG level showed I had miscarried, it was below 2. I was glad to finally know what had happened but wished that I was still
carrying my little baby.
That was the hardest week of my life and I know that I wouldn't have made it without the girls
from Yahoo! Pregnancy 2. Thank you girls I love you all so much for being there for me and helping me through it all. I especially
want to thank Charlie, you were there for me and answered my questions and I'm so glad that we are friends, thank you xxx.
Darren and I had decided to wait until June 2004 to try again as I wanted to give all my time
to Cerys and Harvey but those plans went out the window. December 11th came and I was starting to wonder if I would be getting
a period or not seeing as I didn't know if my body would be back to normal yet. I had this little voice in my head telling
me to do a pregnancy test and so I did. I didn't tell Darren as I wasn't sure if my body was still messed up over the miscarriage
or not. Well I got a negitive and so tried to forget about it and started waiting for a period. December 15th came and I still
had the little voice in my head telling me to test and I hadn't had a period yet so I did a test. The test turned positive
and I didn't quite know how to react I was sat in the bathroom just amazed and numb. After 10 minutes I finally went to tell
Darren who was still in bed. He woke up and I don't think he quite understood what I was going on about and went back to sleep.
In the next week I took 5 more tests and each time they got darker positive lines showing up faster everytime I took
one. I couldn't believe it I was pregnant again and so worried about loosing the baby.
We decided to wait to tell Darren's family until Christmas day and waited until I had my first
ultrasound to tell my parents. On September 1st Archie was born 10 days late and at home.
Our next plan is to move to a bigger house and maybe when Archie is older, around 4 years old
we will try for another baby. I think Darren wants to try and get married in the mean time to keep my mind off babies for
a while.
